After 16 months of non smoking (being blessed with early detection and possibly curative surgery) I relapsed for 1 month. I am extremely upset feeling that I failed my doctor, my family and myself. Somehow, somewhere down the road, especially after having a hazy white patches on my CTscan in May I was so convinced that everything was lost that I started smoking again in the end of September for 1 full month. My last CTscan (last week) was crystal clear, the haziness turned out to be just resolving pneumonia.
My question is how much damage did I do in this one month period? Can this month change the course of my cancer and the future outcomes?
This may be a trivial question but I'm sure many others would like to ask the same.