My Sweetie Whispers in the Sounds of Silence - 1272710

agent99
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If anyone could be lucky with lung cancer, it was my sweetie. He was diagnosed early as a result of an annual heart scan. He had a robotic right pneumonectomy at Duke. The tumor was in an inconvenient location. We just celebrated his two year anniversary in December and excited about transitioning to 1 year scans. I believe he would have been a survivor if it weren't for suffering from several serious intercurrent diseases. He passed due to neurological complications from normal pressure hydrocephalus. In his last days he had severe dysphasia and silent aspiration. His family was with him shepherding him to his final frontier.

I am so grateful for CancerGrace for shepherding me through the early days, calming my fears and soothing my sole.

All my best,
Lisa Levine

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JimC
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Lisa,

I am very sorry to hear that you have lost the one you love so much. I have watched lung cancer take not only my wife, but also that of many GRACE (and real-world) friends and their loved ones, and each is a painful and tragic loss. My wish for you in the days to come is for peace and comfort.

JimC
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catdander
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HI Lisa,

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I hope you've had good support since and have had growing moments of happiness.

I'm sorry I didn't write right away. When I saw the post I didn't respond but had every intention of doing so soon after. The title of your post caused me to balk and wait until I could better handle the comparably tiny sincerity of expressing my condolences. Simon and Garfunkel's music creates vast emotion for the listener, for me in big part the timing of their album Bridge Over Troubled Waters and my dad's death in 1970 had a huge impact. There are some very prominent memories of those first few weeks and their music (notably, bridge over troubled waters) plays large. So your post brought and brings back deep sympathetic feelings for you and my 11 year old self.

Janine

agent99
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Dear Janine,
Thank you for your heartfelt note. Please do not apologize. I have learned that there our so many tangled webs woven throughout our lives. I'm deeply touched by your opening up to me and to all on this forum. I think you are a very brave person. We are so fortunate that you are one of "our" moderators - a truly dedicated, compassionate and unique group of people.

My quoting the Sounds of Silence refers to the subject of an email I sent my sweetie before he was my sweetie. We met at work 3 months before he left for a position in another state. He left and never got in touch with me or any other colleagues. On February 14, 1994 (and I am not a romantic) I sent him a short note saying, the longer you are gone, the louder the sounds of silence. The next day I received a 2 page note titled, "tomorrow is going to be a brighter day," a weekend dinner invite and the rest is herstory!

I didn't know he was a 60s music fan nor did I catch his Jim Croce subject line.

In high school we analyzed the sounds of silence. Little did I know that song would be part of my web. My sweeties last name was Webb....

Best regards,
Lisa