Well, here we are - 4 years after that dreaded initial diagnosis. I wasn't sure at the time whether my wife and I would be here together 4 years later, but indeed we are. 1 year, 1 day, 1 treatment at a time. After 4 years, though, I now know that I will never forget the feelings from those first couple of weeks.
So, my wife is on her 6th line of treatment and doing well. Three standard chemos, three "targeted" chemos (2 of which were via clinical trials). The lung tumor (which of itself the oncologist hasn't been worried about for some time) is the smallest it has been since diagnosis, and the liver metastases are currently at bay. Who knows what's going on with the bone and brain metastases, but no symptoms at all, so we are assuming those are being held at bay as well. RBCs and WBCs are on the low end of normal, but good. Liver enzymes are also now all normal. The abraxane has really been great so far.
Yet, there is no doubt that the side effects are accumulating. Her energy is good (certainly better than during the treatments that affected her blood cells more) but certainly less than it used to be, The neuropathy is mostly minor in terms of any numbness, but the gabapentin has to be taken regularly and dosage watched to keep the hand cramping at bay, and almost any alcohol at all causes some bad leg cramps at night. The tendons in her feet are acting up, but she's been to a podiatrist and its nothing serious (who knows if it has anything to do with the treatments).
So, here we are - one more year of life, one more year of love. Not to mention the excitement of our first grandchild due in August. The omnipresent fear of what may yet be in store is still there, but held in check. Our current life is, for the most part, about as unremarkable as we could hope.
So, for another year, I humbly want to give all of you at GRACE my thanks. For the advice, for the support, for the kindness, and for the comfort you give in just knowing you are there. May you all be blessed with love, joy, and the warmth of family and friends. Thank You.